My feelings would never change, but... now she was gone, and this thought meant more to me than the impending destruction of the world.
I felt that I had done my duty. Nothing drove me now. I had run out of causes and was as close as I might ever be to peace. With all this behind me, I felt that if I had to die now, it was all right. I would not protest quite so loudly as I would have at any other time.